Relationships

It is official I must find and maintain a stable relationship before my mental state deterirerates any further because I'm not sure how much crazy I can get but I am sure the world can not handle me full blown crazy. Plus I creating relationships that shouldn't exist in the first place just sat here thinking about how good it would feel to spoon with #3on my list. and I haven't thought of him like that since high school. 

Anyways school has started back it alright i have nothing some afternoons and nothing some mornings

I've started going back to the gym yeah me

High School Couple

Ok so I had a crush on a couple she was near the perfect girl i'd date and he was close to fitting my type for guys and I was in love with them as a couple but now that they're not together they've lost some of the appeal it also doesn't help that one is dating someone and the other is married with a kid.

Memory Lane

While yes taking a trip down memory lane can be fun and nostalgic it can also be very dangerous especially if you were a depressed individual such as myself. This particular trip down memory lane was inspired by a former crush popping up on face book after several years. It nice to see how he's doing but I'm a little taken aback by the fact that he now has a 6 month old son at the age of 22. Am I the only person in the world that thinks that
Sex + Baby != Marriage. Maybe it's because we're in the south but still getting married just because you're having a baby with a person show poor judgement.

Unpretty

I have nothing inspirational today mostly because I feel Utpretty and i'm drained packing is such hard work. How is it that I can make friends with nearly anybody but I can't start a relationship really is it something about me that just keeps me from starting a relationship is it because I'm not completely over my crush or maybe it's my body image I have no idea.
Mr. trumpet player please exit my mind to the left you have over stayed your welcome I wish it was that easy

AwkwardMTV

So watching yesterdays episode of awkward so Jenna has a stalker and she thinks she paranoid have to admit stalker has a nice bod yet another reason for me to start  working out then I won't be so self conscious of my body. He's an Emo boy to add to it and crazy.

Dating

It is official I'm going to be an old maid when I grow up My little cousin is dating before me and I'm in college I should be out dating and having indiscriminate sex but no I'm a virgin that has never been on a date FMDL I won't take to much of this if I don't get a date by the end of 2012 I'm just giving the fuck up because after 22 years of life and never having a date I'm most likely not going to find a guy to date but I suppose I'm a victim of location But I refuse to settle just because I don't want to be alone I'll get cats before I settle for second best.

L.O.V.E

Sometimes I wonder whats really going on in my head because I almost always have crushes on straight boys. I feel like it because I'm a very touchy feely kind of person and they all have nice bodies and sometimes a nice personality to match but this is unheathy.

Me,Myself, and Dating

So I've come to the realization That the reason I've never been in a relationship is because I'm so afraid that I'll let someone in and that their break my heart but then that's why we have friends. Because your true friend is there to help you pick the pieces up.So I'm going to put myself out there really but myself out there because what's the point in life if you never risk anything it's time I started to live life outside of my shell.

Demon Sandwhich

So This started out as a statement from my friend Chris Thomas Who always said I'd be entertain by a half eaten sandwich. So I decided to give the sandwich a back story and was so thoroughly amused that I never seem to be able to finish reading without cracking up laughing thus it remains unfinished. Please enjoy reading Demon Sandwich

So This Guy for all purposes is me comes into a room and on the table is a sandwich a bologna sandwich so my friend who shall be Chris comes into the room and asks "Are you going to eat that?"

I say "No."

He eats half of it and buts it back when he sets it on the table it starts to move

Me being completely irrational says "Demon sandwich"

Chris says "Stop kidding around the tables just wobbling."

ME: that's the sandwich moving Chris

Chris: no it's not

Me: you just ate half of a moving sandwich

Chris: no i didn't

ME: That Sandwich is going to start kicking in you stomach

The sandwich reaches the edge of the table

Chris: See it was the table

Me: Chris look

The sandwich jumps off the table

I scream "DEMON SANDWICH"

So then our other friend Walks in

This friend is Lloyd

Me: Chris Ate a demon sandwich *snicker snicker snicker*

Chris: It wasn't Doing that a Minute ago

Lloyd: You Ate The Damn Demon sandwich Chris

Me: at least Half of it anyways

Lloyd: I'm Going to shoot it

Me: Go for it but if it comes after you I'm no good

Lloyd went and got a BB gun

he aims at the sandwich which is  slowly making its way to the window

He shoots the sand which in the middle

Me: um mm it's still moving

Chris: I concur

Lloyd: Fine

He shoots it again

Me: its not stopping

Chris: Its Turning around

Lloyd: Shit

Me: Bye guys been nice knowing you

Chris: says Where do you think your going

Lloyd:Oh no You don't

Me: I'm Leaving id rather not be eaten by a sandwich

 The Sandwich is running at Chris.

To be finished When I stop crying laughing

Gameboys are addictive

So I've done nothing productive the past three days because I've been playing Gameboy on my computer. I've finally tore myself forcibly  from play and now I'm listening to Selena Gomez's Love You Like A Love Song on repeat and thinking about how I thought I'd burned the bridges concerning all my past crushes but listening to this song there is one that keeps popping to mind Which is really bad considering he's straight and still lives in the state. (Dreading my classes 10 year Reunion) I'm off to do some writing 

Quality Time With Myself

I'm sitting here watching she's out of my league and I have to say his family is fucked the hell up They adopted his ex-girlfriend What the fuck. So I'm going to continue to sit here and watch and write.

Public education versus the government - Opinion - The East Carolinian - East Carolina University

Public education versus the government - Opinion - The East Carolinian - East Carolina University

New Project

I'm going to start a new project before I go back to school so that I have something to do other then homework while I'm in school. I've decide I'm going to write a novel I have no idea what it's going to be about and no idea where I'm going to start but I'm determined to have something concrete by the end of August and at least a good  portion of it done by the beginning of the year.
Feel free to leave suggestions and comments

High School

I'm going through my old year books looking to see who I did and didn't graduate with. I'm reading what people wrote in my high school yearbook and  come across an entry that says exactly "Wats up person - Mike Lewis" and I'm like what the fuck who write shit like that in someones year book.
The people I went to school really make me question their judgement but that  's not my problem anymore most of them have graduated at this point. 

New Thing

So I'm sitting here watching awkward and Saide Makes me wanna slap the taste out her mouth and WTF is wrong with Mattie like every other scene he's spelling his pits not an attractive quality. On to better things my day ways pretty tame I washed dishes cleaned chicken to fry tomorrow watered the garden  spent most of the morning in bed again got to get up and clean the storage shed tomorrow but that shouldn't take but like a couple of hours.
I'm sitting here listening to Animal (Glee version) and Do Ya Think I'm Sexy (Glee) version and thinking about my lack of a love life and blogging.
Sidenote : Darren Criss is so sexy
The non existence of my love life I blame partially on where I live, I blame some on the fact that I'm not built like a fucking twig or a juice head, and the rest I blame on the idiots that live in this state who apparently can't see a good thing when they see it.
Music update: Switch to Panic at the Disco
Except for the old dudes which truthfully I don't want to start my first relationship with someone who is old enough to be my father.

Social Networking

Hello cyber readers I know somebody has to be out there reading this maybe. I went about my usual social networking activities on Facebook and Twitter and I began thinking why am I doing this what is the fucking point. Not only do I feel that no one really reads what I post but I know no one does because then I'd have like 50 million comments on what I said. Even in my blogging I feel as if no one is reading what I write I might not write the best shit out there but it's nice every once and a while to know that somebody out there is reading what I have to say. Otherwise I'm just opening myself to the void of cyberspace which is a lot like regular space vast and lifeless. I'm beginning to feel as if I were to just disappear from social networking that nobody would notice let alone acknowledge that I existed in social networking in the first place.

No Good Comes From Porn

So I'm sitting here at like 1:30 in the morning staying up so me and my sister can take our parents to the airport and i'm sitting in my bed watching porn. Straight porn in fact I'm sitting here watching this dude fuck his girlfriend and then the ppl (people) they were partying with come in the room and are like "YA get that pussy, dig up in that pussy" and while yes the guy fucking is well hung I'm pretty sure that sex is the one place that a cheering section is not needed because in the end both sides win unless of course the sex was awful and then you don't need a cheering squad you need professional help. Also you really shouldn't be in the bed with the people who are fucking its like really.

On a completely different note I have a strange fascination with watching a man and a women fuck it's very interesting to me for what ever reason and it has nothing to do with my hormones I just like to watch a man and a women fuck.

Side note:  What is it about two girls making out that is so appealing to males I just don't get it.