My High School Love Life is a nutshell

So I'm bisexual and have never been on a single date before. I realized while I was younger that I was liked girls and boys. I became very aware of this when I use to fool around with my former best friend (I can't say his name  because i still love him in a way and I don't want to mess up his life) and I enjoyed it and it wasn't until I hit high school that I told my new female best friend that I was bi and she was like really(very sarcastically). She was my best friend for my entire freshman year. I had many crushes my freshman year none where more significant then Victor Saenz it was thanks to him that I developed an irrational fear. So it was the summer after my freshman year of high school and Myspace was still the popular social network and I had the bad taste and the balls to finally confessing that I had had a thing for him and to put it mildly he was very not ok with it, from then on I've kept my feeling to myself. It was until recently that i realized it was this moment in time that I  built the  impregnable ivory towers that surround my heart. The next significant event in my love life didn't happen until my senior year of high school when I told somebody that I thought I could trust the list of guys that I had a thing for at some point she then told two of the guys on the  list one Matt Hane and the other Brandon Demyer how then turned around and told the only person on the list that still went to school with us Will Mullen though I feel as if Will took it a lot better then Victor did.maybe because we had 3 classes together I don't know.