I feel like the same damn kid that I was in high school alone and depressed ready for the end to come so very soon always so close to the edge of life and death that I really just wanted to jump. The same kid that couldn't wrap his head around the emotional warfare that high school is he took that emotional pain and turned into something physical by cutting himself something he could deal with. I feel like that kid again and I can't take living through that again there is no saving grace this time because this time when I reach the ledge I will not met it with hesitation but instead I will welcome it like and old friend and simply close my eyes and fall in to the dark abyss. There is so much I want to do with my life but I can't keep teetering on the ledge I just can't I barely made it through high school with my sanity intact but to try and relive it is far worse then going through it again. The horrors that I saw in this place sends chills down my spine at the thought and it is for this reason I will either do or die.
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